urgh!

i need to blog. need to get some things out of my mind. it's so messy in there. i can imagine my brain or perhaps, my memory, is like an attic that hasn't been cleaned for like a hundred years. ok. maybe im too exaggerating but it's just similar to that.

alright. i only have less than 15 minutes to blog, which i know i won't realize later that i had blog more than the free-time im having now. yeah, im terribly busy since yesterday - maybe entire week too.

oh! hold on please.

(vanish from in front of the lappy for about half an hour)

sorry.need to flow in the synthetic gas into my reactor to produce methanol. anyways, im back so we're back to the story.

God, i think this week will be a week full of tense, worries and jinx. yeah, bad luck. it started off yesterday when i had a fight with Hubby. well, it wasn't that bad cause it only lasted 10-15 mins. then, i was freaking sleepy and somehow i really felt, deep inside, that this week's Monday will be full of bad lucks. and yes, my instinct was right. i was called for an adhoc meeting with The Boss in the morning. need to impossibly compile a report for an urgent presentation before noon. spent 2 hours making a fool out of myself during the presentation. and the client was from Germany. and he really knows stuff at the tip of his fingers. that means, i can't simply lie. my results of project was sort of bad to him, so have to spend another half an hour listening to an ear-paining lectures from the client and The Boss, but i was relieved to know they were satisfied with the progress. it turned out to be over their expectation, but still need improvement.

which explains why am i here, and not looking forward to go back home even though it's almost 5.30pm. cause i was assigned, along with Hubby, to be at the reactor site for 24 hours. yeah, working our arses out for 24hours. and we can only go back tomorrow morning about 8.30 am and have to come back around 10am. yeah. 2 and half an hour rest only. cruel huh? i know.

another thing that worries me is that Hubby got a phone call from the university's hospital this morning. it was the doctor who took Hubby in for his dengue studies. it seems that Hubby's liver is having some viral-whatever problem. Hubby told me that it wasn't serious but who would believe that? and im so freaking adamant to get Hubby working his fat out starting from now. no more excuses. he needs to shed off those fatty bumps and lumps.

oh. so many things to worry in my head right now. work. moving out into a new place. getting a car. Hubby's health. money-matters. and my own can't-be-included-here personal problems.

that's why i feel like hibernating now. oh, how i wish!