feeling so low =(

how hard it is for a simple girl like me to have a total make over?

i mean, obviously i can't do all in once cause it's going to need lots of ka-ching.

is there anyone of you, could give me bits of hints or tips to start a make-over of myself?

now, you would be wondering why i suddenly ask for a change.

it happened after i saw some pictures of old friends. and boy, they really look different. some just look unexpectedly hot.

see, i want a make-over not for Hubby. he has no complaints at all for the way i dress or look. he doesn't mind me dressing up so simple, even as simple as shorts and slippers. without any make-up on the face, not even a lip-gloss or eyeliners. nope. definitely, he's not the reason for the change.

main reason is i want to feel good. you see, i have a major problem with my self-esteem and confidence. both are at really low level. so low, that i can say a clown-lady look more beautiful or pretty than i am.

i know how to dress, mix and match my clothes. maybe it's just that i never care. or never realize that i should care. can you believe it if i say, i fail terribly of putting on eyeliners? alright, let's not take eyeliners for consideration. i even don't have any idea how to dab on face-powder or a freaking foundation on my face! the only thing i know is how to swipe the lip-gloss or lipsheer across my lips. cause that's the easiest thing to do. any idiotic person can do it.

i do have taste in fashion. i know what color suits me and my skin. what attire should i wear on certain occasions.

i have accessories - a few bracelets, 4 anklets, 25 pairs of earring, 2 sandals, 3 heels, about 4-5 handbags of different styles. that's all i can remember for now.oh and belts too.

when i look in the mirror, i saw nothing of me that is appalling. ok, i reluctantly admit it that i do have an asset which can make most guys to stare at me, but apart of that?

maybe it's not about the accessories or clothes. maybe i just feel so low cause i keep telling myself "you're so f*cking normal and boring".

i don't know. these kind of thoughts is disturbing the whole day. for these all while. but as always, i would just shrug it off and pretend that i never thought of these things. put up a smile. *sigh*

any advice?
hints or tips maybe?
or experiences?

help.

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Anonymous said...

heh *coughs* do i look different too? *coughs* am i unexpectedly hot too? hahahahaha! cheh cheh, i'm so gaining weight this holiday. lol! cerita lain. anyways, you have like, byk earrings, and a couple of sandals/heels. that aint so bad. applying eyeliner needs some practice. oh, you also need a good eyeliner, one that doesn't smudge so bad, considering that you're a noob :P (and here's another noob pandai2 nak bagi nasihat. haha!) and you don't need face powder or foundation, your face is flawless girl! do something drastic. dye your hair or something. pink maybe? hahah. just a suggestion. good luck.

Anonymous said...

oh dear..u look fine. =)

i am not good at giving tips on make up as i am still learning too. but, here's a link to my friend's blog, she talks about make up and hits and tips here and there. she calls herself the make up geek. there's a lot you can learn about make up from her blog..hope it helps.

http://missroum87.wordpress.com/

mInImOy said...

wiena : yeah. but i don't shop much. arent's girls supposed to shop a lot? dye my hair? i did that once like 2 years ago, and it turned out bad. i need a new idea. oh wiena, i am gaining weight too. i look like a piglet now.

patt : haha. i need to make up, but came to think of it - i am working men's work. so how's that? mmg xdpt pakai la~ *sigh* thanks for the link. i'll look up to it.

Kim said...

aww. sho cute. i also suck at anything to do with make up. or clothes. i'm worse than you. hahaha. the number of earrings i own can be counted using just two hands. heels? just use one hand. jeans? one hand. t shirts however.. hahaha.

anyway, u have flawless skin. like wiena said, no need for powders or whatever. =)