hard, terrible day. i need my nap now!

i've been having a lot of weird nightmares these few days. i think since last 2 weeks.

they were all about murder, psychopaths, weird creatures, ghosts, supernatural things.

i guess, i've been thinking a lot of things in my mind. i think i should get a nice holiday to unwind myself and my mind. both are too tangled up in a mess now.

today i had one of my most terrible day in life. it hasn't end yet, that's for sure. just that i don't move around much from my table now, so i guess the jinx is just waiting for me to make a move from this seat. im not gonna move, cause im just too tired to go through the rest of the day. i can only count the hours to go back home.

jinx #1. Hubby took medical leave for a flu and that means no one is in charge of the gas bunker. nitrogen gas was finished, and i had to go down into the bunker to change. the tank - double of my size and height. very heavy. seriously. i thank God for letting me out from the bunker safely without either causing a high pressure explosion or the tank falling on top of me. 3/4 of my energy was consumed.

jinx #2. stupid reactor suddenly was notified as "Explosive". i was like "what the hell?!!" and i swear i didn't touch or do anything to it. the reactor turned itself off (emergency stop), and it won't switch on till after i learnt that one of the panel fuse switch was tripped. have to investigate what caused the emergency trip.

jinx #3. The Boss paid a lab instrument expert about rm1250 for him to help us with gas calibration. and i get this as an answer - "oh.it's impossible to get the results in a few days". i need the results before friday next week. in a nutshell, im on my way to doom and getting screwed by The Boss. (note: initially, it wasn't even my responsibility to get these tasks done. and i was given the tasks last minute. should i be screwed for others' unfinished work?)

before lunch hour, i was practically walking around like a zombie. im freaking tired, both mental and physical. seriously. i think i deserve like a month long of holiday from The Boss for the pressure that she gave.

i think what Hubby told me was right - that these people won't be able to survive at the lab, won't be able to finish their work if it's not for both of us. the way i see it, it's only me and Hubby that are running the show around here. we are the engineers, we are also the technician. im the chemist, Hubby's the electrician. both of us are the Admin and Management crews too.

why not both of us play the role of The Boss too?

i found out that i am constantly looking at the time, while petting other (fluff)pets in Facebook.

for the hard and terrible day i had at work, i think i deserve a McFlurry as a treat. don't you think so?