let-out-feelings session (please ignore)

disclaimer : don't read if you're looking for a useful or interesting post. this definitely isn't one.

i just don't understand and can't accept the way people in this country work!

i couldn't help but to notice and to experience the sense of racism here even when it comes to job expertise.

you don't get what im trying to say, do you? let me just share with you a bit of my disappointment and wrath.

yesterday, was the 3rd day of Chinese New Year and since Hubby's bike is still undergoing a major bypass operation at the workshop, we had no choice but to take a cab. and so we called in a cab. and this is the answer that i got from the operator for the cab company :

"im sorry but there are no cabs for today."

i was like.. WHAT THE FUCK? don't freaking tell me that most taxi drivers are Chinese? don't f*cking tell me even the other cab drivers are banging their balls at home, taking one-week off too? but i kept cool, calmed myself down and headed for the KTM station instead.

another problem : banks. see, our company has implemented the auto-debit system to manage our salary deposit. in other words, our pay will be deposited straight into our account - no need for the hassle of collecting the money from the HR department or to wait 3 days for the cheque to be cleared as cash. with a click and tap on the keyboard, our pay will be in the account.

and our pay supposed to be in our account yesterday. we confronted the HR whom then made a visit to the company's bank, demanding to know what was the problem. and here's what one of bank officer told our HR:

"sorry Mister. but the person who is in charge to key-in the money into your employees' accounts is still on holiday. we can't bank in the money into their accounts."

so? that wasn't supposed to be OUR problem. that's your bank problem! do you expect people to hang themselves to death, then only you'll key in our pay? come on, bitch. just because you all had your salary in before the New Year's holiday doesn't mean we had to keep on waiting for ours! we have expenses to pay, you slut! now, who asked you to take only one race in for the job as a bank officer? what, the other races aren't good enough to be a bank officer, is it? urgh!! im so pissed and the madness is crawling faster to my nerves.

and im fucking angry with the situation now, too. had to go through one problem after another, continuously non-stop. and im tired of solving one problem after another. and yet we are told to enjoy life. enjoy with what?! heaps of burdens and problems? seriously, there hasn't been a day in my working life that i haven't go through without getting a slap in the face with brain-splattering problems, and without having to solve them in a nick of time. and The Boss keeps on pressuring me with lots of tasks and projects. i can go mad. i can see my future having to end up in a psychiatric ward, or home. good. a very "bright" future.

now, i just feel like turning into Hulk. no no. not a green one, it'll be the red one. or maybe an angry psychopath. yeah. i think i opt for the latter cause im very good at imagining how to torture people to death, psychopathically.

but then again, the little girl in me will take over. and i end up sitting quietly in front of my lappy, emotionless. like now.

*sigh*

p/s: thank you for reading my rants. really appreciate it.