can i drill a small hole in my skull to vent out some things out of my mind?

*sigh of relief*

for now, im kinda free although i do have so many things to do. some are easy and jiffy, but mostly do require me to crush my brains again, and make my life miserable.

list of things that i have to do :

#1. get 3 quotations from different companies to purchase some spare parts and consumables for my gas chromatograph. i think this one, will take quite a while to purchase since The Boss is always reluctant to spend some money for little things like this.

#2. re-install the stupid columns into the gas chromatograph.

#3. do another callibration on the 2nd gas chromatograph since the client was very adamant (and stubborn too) for us to follow exactly their operating condition. i've tried like 3 months ago, and it didn't work. i told him that it did't work out as expected, and that i've come up with another condition that yields better results but i guess, he's just the stubborn type.

#4. oh. i forgot. i have to do callibration on the first gas chromatograph too. that means i have to do twice tasks of #3.

#5. this is the toughest part : i have to re-modified the reactor. haih~

and to be honest, im kinda lost in my own life too. i guess i've been doing thinking so much till i don't know what day is it, what date and i still thought it was 2008. yeah, im outdated very much. im unsure now whether i can still hold on myself like before. im a successful grower of white hair. and my hair is falling quite a lot too these days. i thought maybe my scalp wasn't suitable enough for long hair. so i cut short. 3 trims already for now. but they still keep on falling. am i under stress?

oh. i eat a lot too. but i think my appetite is slowing decreasing now. for real food i mean. im more to munchies compared to real food. yeah, the junkie type. and i am being more playful while eating. for me to finish up a simple meal, it will take me at leasy half an hour - if i'm really eating. often, i only play around with my food. that makes Hubby angry. and yeah, i don't always finish my food.

nowadays, i always get scolded by Hubby a lot more than before. i think, i have let my mind think so much of things that it get me wandering around like a dumber.

i don't do things perfectly anymore.
i don't do things in order.
i have become unorganized.
i am day-dreaming more.
my senses have become less sensitive, like for example - when Hubby is talking to me, i don't listen. i can only listen to my thoughts. or when i talk, i talk rubbish more. and my eyes are wandering, day dreaming.
in a nutshell, im out of focus!

like now, i forgot what to blog. i had ideas just now, but my mind wandered off. the last thing i remembered, my tummy was grumbling.

maybe i'll just continue later when im more focused.